knowing

i wonder how long you find people interesting! i mean how much in day can you visit peoples diary know about them....its really very overwhelming......i cant manage to read so much about peoples lives so well written that too.so much of art everywhere.....i need breaks and i want to return......but then time goes by and nothing seems that important......whats with this whole thing this cycle...........thats how my head gets cluttered with so many thoughts which are sometimes useless. when will i find some point. there's got to be right? or everything is pointless! ( i wonder it is me that i jump from one thought to other too quickly or the everything around right now that makes me this way, its not your fault either)

blog and me

Here I m trying to make my place in the new age of verbal incontinence, where blogs are the latest platforms to the unheard….a …… not really actually it’s another commercial way to sell….sell what? just about anything as usual…… not really for the unheard also, the popular ones who can have their dairy written to be read by people who would like to know .But yes ,it is more truthful hopefully then any other medium. At least we know first handedly. Now I doubt! Let’s trust to make lives simpler now. Besides why do we take anything so seriously….yes unless you are researching.
i mean lakhs and lakhs of people just talking , writing and speaking their minds....what really happens..i wonder?? yes i will be able to answer that someday......but for now i just need to unload!
I wonder why I need to speak my mind. ……here is my way to claim for glory (humorously of course, at least let me believe to be enthusiastic about writing here).…besides I always loved the idea of being anonymous…even if I had to write a book. It just makes another good story in everybody’s heads when they start wondering about you…. Yes ,but selling it would be a totally different story…….:-)

A GOOD YEAR

I can’t help commenting on 'A Good Year'...film based on the novel ' A Year in Provence'. Actually I can’t help watching it over and over again. I think it is the most romantic movie in a classic sense (it talks about falling in love, wine, France…what more?) in a contemporary setting. A winemaker has a difficult life. But if he gets it right, he’s had a good year .That’s what a French winemaker will say ‘It’s been a good year.'
Its breath taking scenery is so picture perfect. It’s exactly the life one imagines in the countryside where you relax surrounded by peaceful pleasant days without a worry in the world.
Russell crow plays Max Skinner a ruthless business man in London, where life is fast for Max, though his character is a witty, crafty, dry the depiction is lighthearted and humorous. (I can’t think of anyone that would have done it better). He inherits a vineyard in south of France after the sudden death of his Uncle, Henry. Henry is this Intriguing gentleman who loves life and enjoys his cloistered existence, who also likes spending time with his nephew (Max) other then being around women(not the same one for long) and making fine wine in his chateau . Max visits Provence after Henry’s death and regrets not seeing him for the last 10years. The story is very simple but its shot like real life, where every scene is stretched and well contemplated. It contains a prolonged silence in every scene of Max’s realizations, accompanied by his nostalgic flashbacks with excellent background score. As he reminisce his grand childhood summer’s spend with his uncles who induced in him a fine sense of beauty and judgments, that surrounds us and needs to be recognized, chosen and lived in. “when you find something good, you must take care of it and let it grow.” The effects of these flashbacks are to know the grooming of Max that helps as the story unfolds.
Other characters that give some pace to the movie are Henry’s illegitimate daughter and Francis Duflot the ‘vinyo’ who create a mild drama that complicate Max’s inheritance. The relationship between Duflot and Max is of friendship and mistrust, Duflot knows Max when he was younger but due to distance and time Max’s intentions are being speculated which is worth cause Max does intend selling the property. The film is about Max’s reluctant settlement into what ultimately becomes an intoxicating new chapter. Over the time spend in between the vineyards that remind him of his times spend with his uncle, the deep conversations which help him to grow and savor life.
Max falls in love with a French woman, Fanny Chanel, but his life is in London. How with his subtle new found wisdom he makes the most dramatic and crucial decision of his life. I loved the scene in his office back in London where he chooses to pursue love over a promoted partnership. The Vincent Van Gogh and ‘The Kiss’ which he recognizes…..I feel that, happens so often in our day to day life it all goes unnoticed because they are too trivial things, things that are inconsequential, I think that this movie questions so many aspects of our living and questions the pursuit that’s of no (less!...to save me sum practical face) use if you cant appreciate the little things in life.
It’s France that you imagine, a life in the countryside, the vineyards, and exhilarating backdrops. The fact that whenever Max goes around town, Duflot at home knows his whereabouts, which goes to show the environment of the place. This movie is more about the atmosphere, where you are swept away to the place as you watch it. You imagine the kind of people, the interaction they have and the simple, uncomplicated and plain life they live. Max only realizes the value of this place in comparison to where he lives that is London. “You need one to have the other” -Peter Mayle

This is the end

This is the end to my reliant friend,

this is where we part,

but we will meet in the dark.
Oh! You don’t recognize it.

all i care now about is sleep.

Don’t go too deep into the cold or may be you must go;
we ought to meet around!
bound!

to the woods, to the sea, to my breath’,
even barrens,
I Don’t understand completely

but love completely we will meet.
I know you, your habit!

You get too fierce,
My spirit gives up over my body
and I cant stand gazing your way
I only like you in between
your extremes,
With my cup of tea,
And the most gratifying stillness
I will see you at the other end!

Romantic Manifestation

I enjoy a good meal……….sometimes cooked by me. I did have this barrier before of not really liking what I cooked….but everyone enjoyed it. At least pretended to and hyped it pitying my weak heart. May be when you know what goes behind making a thing you lose the flavor of it. Because you have seen the unfinished and the raw state of things chopped, mixed, mess! Compared to the final product. (i m pretty neat otherwise..) other than hiding my methods of cooking there is another reason why i would like to cook alone so that i can pretend to be on a cookery show on TV as some great chef doing the right thing and knowing the correct terms. but all i say is" aisa karna hai aur phir vaisa karna hai". After all the does and don'ts, you pull things together and make this perfect meal for the people you care about. And hope that they will enjoy and relish it. Another thing about me cooking is that I don’t trust myself and memory...Naa!!. I have to have a recipe on a paper nearby and I m dead serious about the quantities. As for my mom it doesn’t matter at all. She doesn’t refer any recipes even if she does, she never does exactly what it says, Does her own thing. I think that’s what makes her food so wonderful. Food which we all love and identify our homes & hearth with. Flavor that is so customized to the 5 of us. Food that suits all of our different tastes or otherwise. It’s a huge task… And then there is me. Well my food is tasty. Most of the times. (There are bad days. Ok Everybody has them. But let’s not talk about them) the reason i no more have the barrier about liking my own cooked food, the idea is to know the ingredients you use and the processes of cooking and also the after efects. knowing what each of their capabilities are, what tastes and essences are given out under certain conditions and how their properties change or reach a different level. which i think is the key to cooking a delicious meal. hah! not that i have mastered it. i don't know professionally but it's my own sweet little way. I respect and like most of the spices...but the sexiest of them all I think is the Cinnamon (dalchini) just some dry brown sticks with delicate heavenly woody aroma, I have been hung up on cinnamon tea for a while, also apple cinnamon ice cream. It has the tendency to give a luxurious and sensual feel at the same time to anything. I think even green Cardamom does that, without it most Indian sweets are incomplete. The colour of fresh capsicum (Simla mirchi) is so gorgeously glossy green also tomatoes are so vibrant to look at. Garlic, I can have them raw & also enjoy wasting my time peeling them. Ginger and garlic are both electric tasting in nature ,combination is most powerful & I think and is always a big hit! Cloves (laung) hit the taste buds hard resulting instant freshness. Another restricted one is asafoetidia, little works wonders. Turmeric, something about the earthy yellow and the scent feels pure and clean I guess cause of my Indian roots. Others are mint leaves; curry leaves, honey, tamarind, yogurt, mustard seeds-… ‘mustard seeds; Smaller than all seeds, but when it falls on the tilled earth it produces a large tree…’..oh! sum thing I jus remembered…..-to name a few. I have tried some other cuisine’s but Indian is cheaper and everything is easily available. After all my sightings in my “break” time I have grown to be fond of cooking to certain degree. The taste of food prepared with care and love of cooking creates wonders in daily life; make magical ordinary days…..!!

My realizations

"If you dont have what you want,then you have not wanted it enough!" - Me (2002)

'Grown Up' is when you UNLEARN and REDEFINE - Me (March 2005)

"Life is about great underwear!" - Me (2005)

(yes i do mean it literally and metaphorically too......)

Love is when the one who loves you,teaches you to live alone - Me (26.09.06)

My realizations2

nobody is BLACK orWHITE everybody is GREY!

-Me (04.1106)

Insecurities and complexes about oneself,costs your relationships with your immediate surroundings. -Me (18.06.07)

Reflections at the deck edge

End of the day

Something i read in my wallet